Today is Day 22 without sugar. No cakes, no biscuits, no lollies, no chocolate, no sauces with loads of sugar- like in the jar mayo, tomato sauce, no grown up cordial, no teaspoons of sugar in my tea or coffee, no teaspoons of honey, no sharing of a Saturday morning post Ballet croissant with Busy. For a little while there was NO visiting over here, one of my fave blogs but the cake images were driving me wild.
No licking of the cake batter bowl, no freshly baked banana bread, no sharing of cakes with Busy, no gelato bar trips, no sugar in my tea no sugar in my coffee, no honey, and did I mention no chocolate no chocolate no chocolate. I never ate a lot of processed foods insofar as things from packets so I wasn't eating loads of hidden sugar, I knew the sugar I was eating, but a few cups of tea a day and some grown up cordial at night and the odd biscuit, chocolate after dinner - well it adds up.
So what have I learnt? What has changed? Well, I am glad you asked:
1. it is easier for me to say no all the time to sweet things rather than go through the should I? should I? -the internal battle that rages when I am offered something.
2. it is easier to not have 1 biscuit/ piece of chocolate/ slice of cake at all than to have one then try to not have another one. I am now so use to just saying no I don't even think about if I should anymore. This is great.
3. I really think I was addicted to sugar in that I had cravings for it and I definitely experienced some withdrawal symptoms but I don't feel like it is the problem for me like it may be for others in so far as every time they eat it it caused mood swings and ups and downs and general grumpiness afterwards.
What I have NOW realised, with my PHD in Hindsight, is that working, running My Bearded Pigeon, renovating, being the president of a management committee of a place with some long standing issues that were keeping me awake at night as I tried- stupidly- to please everyone, and dealing with someone being cranky with me at work was actually what has been stressful and causing me to feel this at times, awfulness -not sugar. Of course this all meant I was eating more sugar as a way of (not) dealing with this added stress. So sugar was not the issue at all. (Have since received an apology from cranky work colleague and resigned from the management committee-PHEW! and the renovations are done insoafar as Chef is doing the finishing touches and the builders are gone.)
I wonder should I test the waters? Should I have a piece of chocolate to see that it is not as amazing as I thought so? Not yet. I want to do this zero tolerance approach for a bit longer yet. I am just past three weeks. The magic it- takes -3 -weeks -to- change- a -habit time. I feel like I am over the hump. Here's hoping.